I suppose I always knew it would come to this. I'd been in this line of work for several decades and had more clients than a standard calculator could compute. So why shouldn't she be added to the never-ending list? I sat motionless at her bedside, only the sound of the heart monitor filling the room.
All these years and I still couldn't understand the human mind.
All the souls and the reasoning behind suicide continued to elude me.
Maybe it was because I could see all their possible futures? No ones life ever stayed bad. The depressed 14 year old who cut her wrists and cried herself to sleep every night became an emergency room n
As the water tugged softly at her feet,
She tried her damnest to remember
That old tune.
She used to be able to play the whole piece,
Nonstop and by heart,
But now she could barely remember the date.
The waves beckoned to her
As the grip on her violin and bow tightened.
She clutched them
Like her cobalt dress clung to her body.
She rested the instrument on her shoulder,
Drew the bow,
and began to play a different melody.
She gave up
On trying to remember the heavenly hymn-
After all, there was no reason to now.
Instead
Her hands played a tune she'd never heard before
But it matched the feeling
She'd never previously felt.
The music curled
I talked to Fear today,
And I asked him
Why he hated me.
He grinned and told me
I need him to survive.
I could do without Fear.
I talked to Loneliness today,
And I questioned
Why he had a crush on me.
He smiled and told me
Because he was the one
Who kept me safe.
I could do without Loneliness.
I talked to Anxiety today,
And I inquired
Why he was so attached to me.
He sighed and told me
It was to keep me on my toes.
I could do without Anxiety.
I talked to Depression today,
And I quizzed
Why he had his hand around my throat.
He sneered and told me
He and his brothers were a package deal.
I could do without Depression.
I talked to Death toda
Just open your eyes
Swallow your pride
And realize
You're not as alone as you feel
You're not as isolated as you think
The pain is only temporary
I promise
I swear
That when you look back
10
20
30 years from now
You'll be happy you made it
I'm not saying it won't hurt
I'm not saying it will fully heal
But I am saying
You have people who love you
Care for you
Care about you
And would do anything to see you smile again
The pain is only temporary
So don't shy away from help
Don't be afraid to ask
It doesn't make you weak
It makes you strong
Because you want to fight
You want to live
You want tomorrow to be better
And it will be
One day
I promise